sometimes in July..

assalammualaikum guys..
just having a good mood to updating my blog for now..
there is lots of things happen in my life for these few weeks..
in terms of my personal life, my surrounding, my family, my friends and my office mate..and i just dont know where to start..

for me.. everything happen in front of me, that is reality..
and even i m trying so hard to be someone better than before, there will be more obstacles coming forward..
and sometimes, i just feel too tired.. maybe if i m not trying too hard and just flow with the lane, it will be much better..
but i was born to be someone who is never trying to take things for granted..
even i m trying and learning.. but i just cant do it.. it is just not me!!

i know i m not the only one that is living in this world with unfair feeling..
i just can't let go everything that is used to be in my life..
even i m trying so hard..
everyday, i just try to be someone grateful!!
but.. looking and experiencing people around me, makes me feel i m just someone who is keep thinking for everything!!and i m sick of it!!
i think i need a vacation and maybe i just need to lived somewhere else!! far from everyone..nowadays, i just feel so tired!!
it is not that i cant get enough sleep..
but it is because i m tired for being me and tired of being someone who always think of myself and other's problem..
i m just an ordinary lady..
i just cant cope with everything in one time..

i just wish...
i already know all bout my self..

i just wish...
life is more fair..

i just wish..
my life will be better in the future...