envy? Hm.. Curious saja..

hai assalammualaikum guys!
Today orang public holiday due to celebration nuzul al-qura'an.. But anyway, dari kemarin dah me busy.. Kemarin balik kaja around 12 noon then zoom tarus ke SPA mengisi jawatan kosong yang bersesuaian.. After that ke unit pendidikkan lanjutan di jalan Gadong. Actually i would like to call my friend Azim yang kaja di sana. But then as i arrived there, i didn't saw his car. So i take the form by myself lah.. Anyhow, curious saja lah coz tempat pembelajaran yang di tulis tempat form atu, nada maktab soas.. Hm.. I think, i have to called them lah to confirm kan tempatnya.

After dari sana,tarus me zoom ke batu bersurat. Kan membuat sticker for my container.. Sambil-sambil bejalan atu, i saw a shop that advertise selling persian kitten and cats.. A small shops selling lots of cute stuff for kittens.. I saw banyak persian cat there.kitten pun banyak.yang boringnya, the saleslady atu nda nyuruh me masuk ke section meow atu. Huhu katanya takut beterabangan bulu.. Even kan tanya the price pun nda ya melayan.. So ilang my mood tarus lah. Tapi di pet vision, me sempat servey harga cage for cats. Ada me tepakai.so maybe next month lah me bali for my cute kittens..

By the way, bout my topic atu, kan dijadikan cerita, i just felt curious lah. Kadang-kadang i just feel weird bah if people around me (orang-orang tertentu saja ne) mcm selalu kan membuat perbandingan with me. Ada yang secara terang-terang which makes me surprise! And ada yang berkias-kias..

Adoi maa.. Come on lah.. Apa jua yang kan orang jealouskan tempat me ani.. Beharta inda jua.. Lawa inda jua.. Intelligent inda jua.. So apatah? All i got is that i m trying to make a living and just feel happy with my friend and my family.. So, if this things pun orang lain kan take away from me, what else is left for me?? Mcm kadang2 i m so tired bah. I always looked myself at the mirror. I dont know what makes people envy of me? Maybe u guys will say me ane mcm perasan, but it happen bah.not only lately, dari dulu sudah.and what make things worst, orang-orang ane,orang yang sama jua! Couldn't it be more worst?

Kadang-kadang mcm me rasa kesian pulang bah.they try so hard to make my life getting worst bh.but at last, their life turns worst then i am.. That's why i always said, life is so fair. And allah atu maha mengetahui dan adil.. Dan kadang-kadang, i m smiling by myself melihat ragam dan fitnah yg orang-orang ani lakukan just to see me crying..5-8 years past maybe they would felt happy if heard or saw my life miserable. But lately, i learn from them. The more they make my life suffer, the more i smile and be patient! And these strength i got, i learn from my sadness part of my life.. So dramatic? Well, it happen to me.. And i just wish that, allah always give me the softest feeling with full of strength inside me..

Anyway, this saturday, i got written test at UBD.. Wish me all the best.. Anyway.. May allah blessed all of us always. And selamat berpuasa.. Bye guys!