alhamdulillah.. but.. still... i have to struggle...

assalammualaikum dear friend..
alhamdulillah...setelah lama struggling and crying and berusaha dan betawakkal..akhirnya i can smile for my self..
alhamdulliah..terima kasih Allah..
after this i just hope my life is getting better and good..
amin.. yippyy.. its his birthday coming soon :) 7 February... finally.. this yearr i can celebrate it with him insyaallah.. thanks Allah for giving him to me.. but still.. i really wish we can be together.. and all things be solved.. and wish.. i can tell him everything about me... but.. i feel afraid.. will he accept me if tau everything? will he love me lagi? will he... arghhhh.. i m so afraid of losing him.. i dont want to be left by him.. i need him... but.. lambat laun.. i have to tell him.. coz.. i m so suffer to keep it inside me.. i m sorry love...